Winter is the season that is associated with gloomy days, not being able to function, and feeling empty. Yes, we do have a happy, merry-merry day in winters but most days are gloomy. It is scientifically proven that when the sunlight reduces in the fall, the entire winter season becomes prone to SAD (seasonal affective disorder). This is scientifically proven, but do you think we have this sad and not having much hope about tomorrow, only in winter? I am now associating the season with a day in my life. Every day I wake happy (if you wake me up early then no, that’s not the case) I am a person who believes “It’s a new day, I can make it count”. it kind of associates with summer, the cheerfulness to live yet another day. Wait spring also denotes happiness right? Which part of the day I can associate with spring now? Maybe in the between's, like when getting excited and happy when I socialize with certain people and having deeper conversations or when I learn something new about myself or the universe or when my unconscious mind surprises me with thoughts I never knew existed.
Okay, I have a lot for spring. In the afternoons it becomes ill-lit. There is a sudden drop in mood. I find it hard to do anything sometimes I try to sit with the feeling. when it becomes overwhelming I sleep, okay most of the time I sleep. I am associating this mood with winter. Autumn is considered a season of rebirth and growth, my autumn of the day will be evening. Where I let myself rediscover the feeling I had when I started my day. My evenings make me feel like the universe’s way of giving me a second chance to make my day count if I hadn’t done that already. Pretty much covered all the seasons? Yes, I did But, there is a part of the day called ‘night’. what do I feel at that time? Total emptiness, the inability to feel and do anything swallows me, to not make me a victim of the emptiness that grows inside me I try to keep myself super busy. Do you think that works? Take it from a experienced person IT DOES NOT. It comes back at the moment I give myself time. I had to let myself sit with that feeling, sometimes I do and sometimes when I don’t have the courage to face it, I keep myself busy. My nights belong to Winter too. It’s my every day, maybe it doesn’t happen in the exact order. But it sure does have a hint of every season. Which is my favorite season? Obviously Winter. Because it has taught me so many things, made me strong, and helped me taste the flavors of other seasons fully. More like made me live in the moment. As we all know, No winter lasts forever and no spring skips its turn. And every single day is a mixture of seasons, maybe we experience the emotions attached with the season a little longer than usual during each season. Other than that we are given the practice to face these seasonal disorders every day, maybe we still aren’t aware of it. Live, be alive even on your darkest days make sure you live it. See you till I get another topic to write about. byeeeee.
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